Lost

"Mood I'm in, Can't explain. It's black and white. Much worse than
pain."

You know it's bad when I'm resorting to song lyrics. And it is. We got
one of *those* phone calls last night. You know the kind I mean if you
live far away from family. This time, it was Tony's cousin's daughter.
Whitney Loos. Only eighteen and thrown from a vehicle in a wreck Sunday
night. Kind of makes you look askance at the 401.k, doesn't it? I mean,
what's the point. As I am writing this, Tony is at the gate waiting for
his flight back to Ohio and I'm drinking coffee and feeling useless. I
keep trying to think of what I can do, knowing the whole time that
nothing can patch this and the whole thing is resurfacing ugly memories
of Henry's death around the same age. All those stupid things we did at
that age that we laugh about now and wonder how we ever survived them.
Its not really so funny when you're reminded that not everybody does.

Comments

[hollyjean]

just hugs right? That's all one can do. You do a lovely job of providing verbal support, but sometimes it's just time to cry. Sending lots of telepathic hugs both west and south. Sit in the grandma room. Love you.

[Jen]

Hugs to you.

[andrea]

ah damn, sorry to hear that. *big hug*

[Crystal Coyne]

My brother was in the car with Whitney she was his girlfriend this was just awful just pray that things get better day by day and remember to hug your family you dont no what or when they can be taken away

[jamie ann]

this is whitneys little sis jamie ann! she is in a better place now! where the streets are gold! and tommy will be okay! he is a soldier and will make it thru!!!! whit would want every one to keep their head up!!!

[jamie ann]

whitney had eight brothers and sisters that love and miss her very much. she was not only my sister but she was also my best friend. we used to do everything together. until i moved out of cleves and moved to florida with my dad. tommy is also a really good friend of mine. they were in love i dont care what any one says, i seen how they acted towards each other. they would have been together 2 years may 2nd. and her birthday is may 13. she would have been 19. britney bowman was whitneys best friend. just prey that she gets thru this ok. i love you brit!!!! see you at the end of may!!! and tommy... keep your heads up!!!

[jamie ann]

here is a poem that i wrote for whitney...

now that your gone i now know why,
everything is happening as the days go by.
i dont know what to say it all happend so fast,
all of our sweet memories,they all will last.
you are my world, my sister my insperation, my life.
and you neve got the chance to say,
he is my husband and im his wife.
you were loved by so many dirrerent soals.
another thing you didnt do is accomplish all your goals.
you were not only my sister but also my bestfriend.
your love will be in my heart until the very end.
when im on my way to heaven will you meet me along the way?
to tell me that im leaving earth and coming home to stay!
and when we get to heaven we will spread our beautifil wings and fly!
i wish i had one last chance to say, I LOVE YOU WHIT, GOODBYE!!!!

[sarah]

hey this is jamie anns friend sarah from florida . i really didnt know whit but i heard a lot of stuff from jamie ann. whit sounded like a very nice gurl. i know that jamie ann misses her a lot and i feel bad. even though i really dont know everybody who was in the car i just wanna let them know that i hope that they feel better and get through this. keep in touch with jamie ann she needs the love from her family and friends. i have 3 sisters and im not to nice to them all the time and this kinda wakes me up and tells me that i need to be more nicer cause i dont know what i would do without them. so just remember to always say i love you to your family and friends cause you dont know whats going to happen. jamie ann i luv u and keep ur head up.. -sarah

[jamie ann]

today whitney and tommy would have been together two years. may 2!!!! they went through a lot together and she stuck by his side no matter what was going on. i just wanted every one to know that!!

[jamie ann]

whitneys b day is in 9 days... may 13... she would have been 19!!!

[NICAH SIMS]

THIS IS ANOTHER ONE OF JAMIE ANN'S FRIENDS I DIDNT KNOW MUCH ABOUT WHITNEY BUT I HAVE HERD GREAT THINGS ABOUT HER AND I KNOW JAMIE MISSES HER I WOULD TOO IF THAT WAS MY SISTER AND ALL I HAVE TO SAY TO JAMIE ANN IS KEEP YOUR HEAD UP AND BE STRONG AND YOU WILL SEE YOUR SISTER WHEN EVER YOUR TIME COMES AND I HOPE ITS NOT SOON CAUSE YOU MY GURL AND I WILL LOVE YOU AND WHITNEY ALWAYS

[jamie ann]

hey its jamie ann! its almost been one year! i miss her more and more every day . i have went through a biethday a christmas and a thanksgiving with out her and its so hard. i just have too pull throuhg, i am in foster care waithin on my mom to get me the hell out of here. i gotta go.

jamie ann

[Gene Powell]

My daughter and Whitney were very good friends and to see this happen was a tragedy,Kristen loves you Whitney and you have impacted her life more than you will ever know,sometimes she just cries thinken about you and she starts blurting out all the things you guys used to do,Whitney spent many nights at my house with Kristen she was a ispiration to kristen and she will for ever be missed.Jamie Ann Kate says hello and she loves you and if you need her phone number write to my email.From my family to yours our prayers will be with you forever.The Powell Family.

[olivia]

hey whitney you've been gone for 5 years now. i miss you and cant wait until i get to see you one day. i love you tt and miss you more than anything